I don't even think you realize that you hurt me and that you continue to do it. I wish I had the strength to break away from you entirely to stop the hurt but I don't. I know that you are using me to fill a part of your life and soon that will come to an end. I feel utterly disposable in your life. You turn to me when you need an opinion, a thought or someone just to listen to you, which is fine I need that in my life too and I turn to you for the same reason and I turn to my true friends for the same thing. Heck, one of my friends I value the most I haven't spoken to in a month because I've been so busy and she's been busy. The difference is that I know that at any moment when we need the other person we will be there.
You as a friend act differently and I know that soon this friendship will come to an end and you don't even seem to see or understand why. The worst part of this is that you continually try to change who you are to "reinvent" yourself to find something that you think will fulfill you rather than looking to your own life to see what you do have and how full your life already is.
I am frustrated and hurt and what's worse is I don't even think you know.
I hope that one day you realize this and I hope that you will find what you are looking for.